Hi im aware i will make alot of spell erorrs and im sorry for that to start with .

Im 22 years old almost 23 but i have not really acknowledged my sexuality for what it is untill about 2years ago. And what i think has mainly held myself back is that im afraid. I’m more afraid that God will not accept/ love me. That i will be punished (i know i must sound awful or stupid) but this is what i think of most of the time. I have just broken up with a woman who i truly loved whole heartedly and i was truly happy but in the back of my mind the doubt always sunk in. “Is this right/?” “will i go to hell?”.. will God accept myself and my relationship?. Im worried if i have another girlfriend things will be great but i will feel this way again and it makes me sick to my stomach and push whom i love away. I don’t want to feel like this anymore when i have just come to accept myself. I want to feel comfortable that God will love me and welcome me with open arms and that its not just something i am telling myself to make myself feel better and at ease. This is rrally affecting me.

thanks.

Hi mis2n_u

It’s great to have you here at f2b. Welcome!

Unfortunately, that sense of dread and expectation of judgment is often normal at the start when we’re still coming to terms with our sexuality. It takes time to question the heteronormative conditioning from the church and wider world. The good news is that you won’t always feel like this.

Have you read any gay affirming or alternative interpretations of scriptures? I can recommend Keith Dyer’s article in our resource section. It’s long but good to get an objective and scholarly view on scriptures. There’s also the dvd called ‘For the Bible Tells Me So’ which you could probably order online. I found those resources and others like them very positive in helping me banish my fears.

Keep us posted.

Blessings,

Ann Maree

Hi Ann Maree,

Thankyou for your reply.

No i havent read anything like that before i will look into this and check out the dvd you mentioned.

Anything to help banish the fears. Its also very comforting to know there are others who think the way i do and that

i wont always feel this way

thankyou.

Thankyou so much Anthony, and thankyou for introducing me to this site.

Yes avb, great point about the many resources available now and how they accelerate the process of reconciling sexuality and spirituality.

Yay another bisexual!, hi mis2n_u,

Welcome aboard I wouldnt worry abt spelling – it looks as if you were well understood

I can understand your fears and I want you to know that its ok to be bisexual and be a christian too!

Its fab you found this site I hope that it helps you heaps!

Ant